Archive for the 'depression' Category

Lay your head where my heart used to be
Hold the earth above me
Lay down in the green grass
Remember when you loved me
Come closer don’t be shy
Stand beneath a rainy sky
The moon is over the rise
Think of me as a train goes by
Clear the thistles and brambles
Whistle ‘Didn’t He Ramble’
Now there’s a bubble of me
And it’s [...]


Daniel Johnston and a light spring rain.


Interesting developments in the life of Ivy-Noelle. Why do these things always surprise me?
Today I feel like I’m in some sappy indie director’s masterpiece. Been watching the rain come down and listening to Owen. I think I’m going to see him in concert on sunday.  Feeling a little heartbroken and melancholy and enjoying wallowing in [...]


this is going to suck
but be so good for me
but suck so bad


Been working on a paper that I can’t really work on because I forgot all my sources at school.
Also, been filling out job applications. Applied to:
Terrain, Anthropologie, Urban Outfitters, Delia*s, American Apparel,  Borders, Ritz Camera, and some other places I DON’T KNOW THEY ALL START TO LOOK THE SAME AFTER A WHILE.
Been listening to Dr. [...]


Sucker

10Mar08

I’m at home now, feeling sad sappy sorry for myself, feeling miserable, feeling guilty, feeling alone.
I’m also feeling alright, feeling normal, feeling more stable.
Not sure what to make of it.
Right now I can hear my neighbors fighting through the wall. Screaming at each other. Cursing and yelling. They sound like baboons. They sound like dogs.
My [...]


just three more days
cross your fingers
survive survive survive


Dealing

03Mar08

I’m getting a little better.
It’s supposed to be 75 here today and sunny, but I have a midterm at 2:30 and class until 5:30. I am really upset that I’ll miss the nice weather.
Yesterday was exceedingly pleasant until about 8 o clock. I always seem to have a time limit on my good days.
Oh fuck, [...]


I am not doing so hot. Max and I broke up. I feel really sad about it. I know this makes me sound like a five year old, but I feel a little like a five year old, so shut the fuck up.
Midterms are killing me
Transfer Applications are killing me
The good times are killing me
I’m [...]