Archive for March, 2008
Interesting developments in the life of Ivy-Noelle. Why do these things always surprise me?
Today I feel like I’m in some sappy indie director’s masterpiece. Been watching the rain come down and listening to Owen. I think I’m going to see him in concert on sunday. Feeling a little heartbroken and melancholy and enjoying wallowing in [...]
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Tags: music, owen, rain, sad
save your film
I’m done.
DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE.
Fuck you, fuck you to hell.
I’m sick of being lied to.
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this is going to suck
but be so good for me
but suck so bad
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wish I could send it to you
It’s 75 and sunny here today. Back home I hear they’re calling for snow. It’s weird being so disconnected.
Last night was slightly disappointing but made better by a sleepover at Ann’s. That girl is so amazing. We talked about goofy futures (hers involved a goat named Willis, mine involved making pillows out of old band [...]
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Tags: ann, best friends, easter, family, happy, homesick, sleepover, spring
I’d go through it all again
Evening went like this:
hungry
supper
crying
walking
painting
happy
yay!
I painted for about two hours with this wonderful little watercolour set I borrowed from Ann. I also played my guitar for a little while. It’s amazing how these things make me feel better so quickly.
Been listening to the Handsome Furs a lot recently. Check them out, they’re godly.
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Tags: art, feeling better, handsome furs, music, painting
her mind’s completely wrecked
things that are dumb:
-homework
-group projects
-jerky toolshed people who will remained unamed but are still jerky
-the Guilford dining hall
-how my room always gets really really messy and I don’t feel like I’m being that messy
-bein’ lonely
things that are cool:
-watching silent films in English class
-Chesapeake/Meredith being my partners for the “food and drink of the 1920s” project
-fake [...]
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Tags: school
anywhere but here
Back at Guilford.
Look kids, here’s the straight skinny: I’m not doing well. Things are really bad in my braincase. I’m trying so hard, so fucking hard.
All you’ve heard me say is how much I hate school?
maybe you should think a little about why I might be saying it.
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Christ on a motorbike
Been working on a paper that I can’t really work on because I forgot all my sources at school.
Also, been filling out job applications. Applied to:
Terrain, Anthropologie, Urban Outfitters, Delia*s, American Apparel, Borders, Ritz Camera, and some other places I DON’T KNOW THEY ALL START TO LOOK THE SAME AFTER A WHILE.
Been listening to Dr. [...]
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Tags: dr. dog, employment, papers
Sucker
I’m at home now, feeling sad sappy sorry for myself, feeling miserable, feeling guilty, feeling alone.
I’m also feeling alright, feeling normal, feeling more stable.
Not sure what to make of it.
Right now I can hear my neighbors fighting through the wall. Screaming at each other. Cursing and yelling. They sound like baboons. They sound like dogs.
My [...]
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Tags: college, depression, heartbreak, home, macbook, narcissism, photobooth, sadness
I’m through with people
just three more days
cross your fingers
survive survive survive
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